Saturn square Neptune
Saturn square Neptune indicates inner tensions and frustrations, and it is likely that Neptune will be inhibited from true realization and will be bound within the unconscious mind by the barrier-forming restrictions of Saturn. This will cause you to be anxious, stimulating unconscious fears, anxieties, phobias, morbidity and guilt feelings arising from an overactive imagination which lacks suitable channels for a healthier release. The consequences of this inner pressure and disquiet tend to create feelings of inadequacy, incompetence and inferiority. These may be quite illusory and unrealistic, yet they have a powerful influence on your actions and choices. As time passes and you perpetuate these tendencies, you continue to create negative results, which convinces you that such inferiority beliefs are actually true. You become a self-defeatist, and lack confidence in your own abilities. This negativity can spread until you begin to run away from accepting responsibility or challenges. Denial of any aspect leads to its suppression into the unconscious mind, where it is likely to fester, slowly releasing poisons into the personality within the appropriate level of natural affinity, distorting body, emotions or mind. Such a forced cutting away of part of your nature is never wise and is as foolish as cutting away an arm because there may be an unsightly mole on it. In accepting your own nature, self-forgiveness is required, and a refusal to compare yourself to any illusory ideal of perfection. Why feel guilty because you are not like an ideal? You never can be, and your real task is just to become yourself, warts and all; and coming to terms with that is a great freedom and liberation in itself. Face those fears of failure. Talents are there within you; they are just hiding out of sight. Find that pot of gold around the corner, and perhaps with a bit of support from others you'll learn how to really use it. All of those inner illusions, guilt trips, inferiority complexes and phobias can dissipate like chimeras in the sky. The self-imposed barriers of Saturn will collapse, and Neptune will flow through, healing you and inspiring you to find a new way.
In practical and sensible ways, you struggle to rein in your visions, dreams, imaginings, ideas, and flashes of psychic insight. Perhaps it’s because the flickering perceptions in your head are often more compelling than the consensual reality that nearly everyone else seems to talk about. You're not necessarily foolhardy to lose yourself completely in “another world.” But you're also not wholly convinced that you can keep your feet fully planted in the one you share with others. The wiser response to cultivate throughout your life is to focus more on honouring your inspirations with real-world actions, even if it's just writing them down. You needn't obsess about making the world have faith in you if you believe enough in what's flowing through you to share it. That will require patience and careful cultivation of what will at first be too frail and fragile to endure the harsh gazes of others. But if you and your mental pictures persist, then eventually they will come alive and thrive enough for all to see.
Saturn square Neptune creates tests and challenges in achieving your hopes and dreams. These tests and challenges can be psychological in the form of guilt, fears, and anxieties. You may also face delays and restrictions from other people or events in your life. This is a karmic aspect, so you may experience some hardships to raise your consciousness and liberate yourself of negative karma. Time, self-discipline, patience, and persistence will all help in overcoming any fears and lead to the achievement of your hopes and dreams. Neptune governs creative and artistic pursuits such as music, dance, and film. I was surprised to find so much creative talent among celebrities with this aspect very tight in their charts. There is real potential in drawing on some life lessons to help creative self-expression. Fear, paranoia, and addictions are some things to avoid with this aspect. You may have to deal with more disappointment or tragedy than most others. These dark experiences will give you all the life experience and determination you need. Seeking out further adventure in the dark through drugs or other forms of self-abuse is unnecessary. You will be more vulnerable than most to getting stuck in the darkness and unable to crawl your way out. There is no point in beating yourself up about things that happened in the long past. Once you forgive yourself, then others will too.
Almost totally internal life, easy surrender to disappointment, pain of living, restlessness, restlessness, obsession, very pessimistic, masochistic tendency to suffer and be a victim. If Saturn predominates abnormal tendencies, hysteria, constant dissatisfaction of the senses that gives very primitive and elemental mentality, inaccurate sense of reality